For the mom seeking Peace…

Photographer: Carly Sumner Photography

“And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Phil 4:7 

This past summer and fall were some of the most chaotic and difficult months I’ve ever faced. I desperately needed peace, but everything felt out of control. No strategy or effort I tried made a difference. Night after night, I sat on the floor in Colten’s room, crying out to God, “Where are You? Don’t You see me?” My heart felt so heavy, and I was angry. 

For months, nothing changed. But a turning point came when I realized I couldn’t keep striving to fix it all on my own. Instead, I began asking for His presence in the middle of the chaos. Simple, raw prayers like, “Jesus, please come.” Slowly, as I made the daily choice to trust Him, even when I couldn’t see the circumstances changing, my heart started to change.

I began to feel the peace He promises, little by little. I turned to worship music to guard my heart and mind from the enemy’s whispers: You’re not enough. You’ll never control your anger. You’re so impatient. The lies kept coming, but I clung to the truth of who Jesus says I am.

And here’s what I learned: But Jesus. He calls us His own, and in Him, we have access to a peace that transcends the chaos. It doesn’t mean the hard days vanish or that I never lose my patience. But it does mean I can try again, knowing He is with me and for me.

To any mom walking this same road, feeling overwhelmed and unseen, I want to remind you: His peace is for you, too. Keep seeking Him, even in the hardest moments. He sees you, He hears you, and He is faithful.